CavernSense

Well, I do believe the upgrading, updating, re-baiting, and rearranging is almost done. I moved the CavernScents story to its new home, and when it it properly skinned and dressed I’ll ask if it can be added it to UruBlogs. Even after the Cavern has closed I find myself investigating… oh, there I go again. That’s a story of a different character and I have to stop criss-crossing the criss-crossable boundaries. “Obey, Ghaelen. Walk over there and talk about that.”

I am just grateful to the blog divinities that I didn’t break this blog as I stumbled around trying to move the installation from Fantastico to Simple Scripts. It worked. Huzzah! I do like the export function in Wordpress. That helps a lot.

The Cavern closed on April 9 as several groups of people around the cavern celebrated or mourned or comforted each other or gazed out onto the lake or into the myst in quiet solitude. Near the end we suddenly recieved a message that the cavern would be closing. That was quite a shock. It was at that moment when we all realized we wouldn’t see each other again, nor explore, nor laugh or dance together. Tears issued in abundance for a while.

Suddenly I couldn’t communicate with anyone. They were there, but they weren’t “there” any longer. I thought of the death of a loved one, whose body remained while the soul/spirit left it. Everyone just stood there, motionless, as the Beam from the Great Zero continued to pass through the Pub. It seemed emptied of life.

I finally left. The next day I tried to return (just had to, I guess). The gateway was closed. I tried a different route, one I hadn’t used in a few months. That one worked, but things were different. There was no communicate with others through my KI, nor could I tell if anyone else was in the cavern. Links to new areas were gone, too. I realized I was back to being there alone, or once again out of time/space phase with anyone else who might be there. With a sense of sadness I recognized the cavern I knew before I knew others might also be there.

I wonder if this is part of what the bahro can do — change KI frequencies or even the magnetic frequencies of the ages so we can’t see each other. Maybe the books were still there but now I can’t see them. But then, why would they do that? It doesn’t make sense to me right now.

Anyway, it’s a lonely place again. That much I do know.

Oh my gosh, the closing of the Cavern is coming…..

There are some beautiful tributes to our community. They all make me cry. I’ll update this post as each one comes out.

“Don’t Give up, Uru.” Project Video by Marten, Tweek, and Erik: A Music Video to “Don’t Give up”

“Remember MOUL,” by Leighana: Music Video

A Memorial Video by Libera: “Remembering”

The Cavern Choir has had their final concert. There are links to a beautiful video by Veralun in several formats on the MOUL forum from the Under the Roots Party.

I’ll add more as I become aware of them.

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~Must get more tissues. I do believe I will cleanse my entire body of toxins during my shedding of tears for MOUL.

I thought I should add a category about Common Sense. But there really isn’t any here.  I mean, I don’t have any. And people in the Uru Community are way beyond common sense. They arrive equipped with CavernSense. It’s much deeper, more expansive, more sensitive to things they and others need. They may not USE it but they HAVE it. The seventh and eighth senses, you know the one’s that connect us all together and ….

but I digress. More about that another time.

Rest assured, should I find some common sense somewhere, I’ll be sure to make a note about it.

Last Thursday, April 3, GreyDragon posted that Cyan wanted to keep us all together on a common server and give us tools with which to care for the Cavern. They are just waiting for Game Tap to decide whether they will release the rights.

What a wonderful surprise. My spirits lifted over the course of a few hours, and my whole life/goals seemed clearer again. Isn’t that something?  I’ve seen that some people don’t believe it will happen, and others wait with baited breath.  Some will never know because they left long ago.  Such is life I guess.  But I’m happy.
So here is the post I should have posted a couple days ago when I ended up doing the WordPress upgrade. I’m still laughing about that. Check29cents

“Know when not to start upgrading.” Ignore that message about the out of date version!

Well I didn’t listen.

Our web host provider, BlueHost has very nicely added a new scripting program, SimpleScripts, that installs various web programs for us, like WordPress, Joomla, ZenCart, etc. I have irritated my friends for years with all my hype about how great BlueHost is, and so of course this should be a great addition to their service. For a couple of the programs the installation went like a breeze. Faster and more up-to-date than Fantastico, which wasn’t bad at installing, just slow at recognizing new versions. I was tired of manually upgrading because of that. So I thought to myself, yay, this is the answer to all my time-consuming manual upgrades.

…..because you know those folks tend to upgrade frequently…..

Well, it didn’t work. I first tried an install and named my own databases so I know what the heck database goes with what blog. No way. config file not found. So I asked Simple Scripts to do a new install and control everything (so I could see how it worked). No way again. Huh? Now the login file wasn’t found. Looked around the WordPress forums, found a few ideas but no answers that worked. Went to the BlueHost forums, no answers there either.

Sheesh.  After three hours, I went back to the manual install and created a new database. Name the database here, add a user there, unzip, upload, add a few lines to config.php, dum dee dum… Point to the install file, and presto! In ten minutes I had the new installation running.  Upgrading the old took a bit longer, but nowhere near the time to use the installer.  Still can’t figure out what is wrong.  I still think BlueHost is the best thing in host servicing, because they got right on the problem and had the same thing happen that I did.  They are working on fixing what they can, and the rest is up to SimpleScripts.  Guess I’ll go back to manual upgrading.

The most humorously annoying thing is that it took me even longer to sit here and complain about it than it did to do the manual upgrade.  Now I’ve spent four hours on it, when all I wanted to do was write a short entry here about how glad I was that Cyan is trying to keep the Uru Community together on one server if they possibly can.  A bit about their post yesterday on the MOUL forums, to be exact.  Heh, I still have to add that entry here.

Next time I take my own advice.

I finally said to myself.  Get up, get up.  Live again.

Have to accept that MOUL is ending.  Maybe in… 10 days now?… something else will begin that is related to the Cavern IN the cavern.  Maybe there will be some semblance of a cavern.

………

But not today.

I’ve been checking out other virtual worlds.  Have actually spent quite a lot of time in one called Kaneva.  It is connected with Turner in a media — hollywood — ‘be a teen rock star or movie star’ sort of way and is REALLY targeting groupies and wannabees like crazy.  Half the people that post on the forum or in the age write abbreviated words and I rarely see a complete sentence.  Argh!

The upside is… they have nice, private areas we can build in and easy-to-use building tools. A huge green field I can build on.  Nice.  We can upload music and videos and play music in our own homes or community hangout’s they have pretty good vegitation, and I’m not too bad with textures for my structures.  I’m developing a pretty neat Guild of Healer’s Groves for our group to congregate, should we get a large enough group.  I also really like the way the web page, blog, messaging, and design tools integrate with the three-D environment.  As good as There, but the graphics are tons better.

It is free and we can earn points to buy materials to build.  They have pretty nice furniture, too.  But…. the clothes are all about hip, sexy (but keep it family friendly — ummmmm), and cool dude and dudette.  I don’t get to look anywhere near my age.

Well, it’s not Uru, and there’s not much CavernSense there yet.  But there are some Uru-ites there now, so I feel less isolated than I did last week.  We’ll see how it goes when I have the first gathering.

Wandering around, have things to do but can’t seem to do them.

Looking for something, don’t know what.

Is this grief? I’m not very familiar with that feeling, so I don’t know. All I know is I wander around, into the cavern, back to the surface, around here, there, looking…

I really need to do some things. I really need to figure out what to do next.

My friend Lord Chaos can’t get into the cavern anymore; his computer crashed and isn’t booting up. At the last, he’s not here? Not at all, nowhere? I can’t compute in my own mind — haven’t got enough RAM. I just sit and wonder — what to do now?

I really need to do some things.  I have a lot to do.

Breathe.  Create a space around the content of my mind.  Make room for who I am and accept this is what I need to be doing right now.

Right now.

Maybe it’s time I post to that thread.

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Can’t believe a game could have such an impact on my psyche — won’t believe it. That’s probably why it does.

Those with real power in the world also have an awareness of what real power means

They know what real power can do

They understand the responsibility that comes with having real power

Because of this, they will not use it to attack another.

Not in actions, not in words, no matter their ability or opportunity

Because they understand.

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Should you attack them

They will ignore you, or, if necessary,

stop you from hurting them.

But they don’t have to hurt you in return

to stop you.

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You become angry then

because you think you have lost and they have won.

But you are angry only because you don’t yet understand.

Should they hurt you,

All of us lose.

Oh those darned emotions.  They take hold and sweep us back and forth, trying to get what they want.  There is no battle so difficult as the one to keep them under control.  It’s wearying — in the end what did they get?  The same thing they always get. Our energy.

Maybe emotions need to take a back seat.  They are like children, after all.  They don’t want the best for anyone else but themselves, and they will use us up to remain fed. The worst is when we try to wean them.  Oh, the pain they can cause!  All the fussing, the screaming and yelling.  No wonder we find ourselves behaving in the strangest ways for which we later have to make amends.  Or we watch others act strangely.  Chances are it’s those darned emotions.

But we have to wean them, and we have to wean them kindly and gently, otherwise they will control our lives.  We have to look them square in the eye, finally, pick them up, give them a hug and send them out the door.  We have to trust they will be taken care of.

Then the real work begins.  We have to get used to being with out them.