CavernSense

Wandering around, have things to do but can’t seem to do them.

Looking for something, don’t know what.

Is this grief? I’m not very familiar with that feeling, so I don’t know. All I know is I wander around, into the cavern, back to the surface, around here, there, looking…

I really need to do some things. I really need to figure out what to do next.

My friend Lord Chaos can’t get into the cavern anymore; his computer crashed and isn’t booting up. At the last, he’s not here? Not at all, nowhere? I can’t compute in my own mind — haven’t got enough RAM. I just sit and wonder — what to do now?

I really need to do some things.  I have a lot to do.

Breathe.  Create a space around the content of my mind.  Make room for who I am and accept this is what I need to be doing right now.

Right now.

Maybe it’s time I post to that thread.

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Can’t believe a game could have such an impact on my psyche — won’t believe it. That’s probably why it does.

Those with real power in the world also have an awareness of what real power means

They know what real power can do

They understand the responsibility that comes with having real power

Because of this, they will not use it to attack another.

Not in actions, not in words, no matter their ability or opportunity

Because they understand.

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Should you attack them

They will ignore you, or, if necessary,

stop you from hurting them.

But they don’t have to hurt you in return

to stop you.

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You become angry then

because you think you have lost and they have won.

But you are angry only because you don’t yet understand.

Should they hurt you,

All of us lose.

Oh those darned emotions.  They take hold and sweep us back and forth, trying to get what they want.  There is no battle so difficult as the one to keep them under control.  It’s wearying — in the end what did they get?  The same thing they always get. Our energy.

Maybe emotions need to take a back seat.  They are like children, after all.  They don’t want the best for anyone else but themselves, and they will use us up to remain fed. The worst is when we try to wean them.  Oh, the pain they can cause!  All the fussing, the screaming and yelling.  No wonder we find ourselves behaving in the strangest ways for which we later have to make amends.  Or we watch others act strangely.  Chances are it’s those darned emotions.

But we have to wean them, and we have to wean them kindly and gently, otherwise they will control our lives.  We have to look them square in the eye, finally, pick them up, give them a hug and send them out the door.  We have to trust they will be taken care of.

Then the real work begins.  We have to get used to being with out them.

It comes out rather early in the evening, since I might choose to go to bed. The evening post, that is. It’s a post, of news, in the evening.

There’s a bit of a problem, though, when posting the evening post, because there’s little news in the post. So what to post?

I could fill up the post with words. Big words always sound important in posts. I’m rather tired of big words, though. They tend to make my head hurt.

Hmmm, much ado, nothing to report. So much happens in the background, like a Windows Update. Only when the day gets rebooted do we find out what really happened.  Usually it isn’t much good — just takes up more room and slows everything down.

I could always just leave it in the background.

Well, tomorrow is another day. Maybe I will try the morning post.

Silence is not, in fact, acquiescence.

That it is, is not a law,

and you are not the law maker.

I choose to speak when I choose to speak.

I keep silent when I choose not to speak.

So you say what you need.

Make your noise.

Posture your power.

It has no affect on my choices.

When I have something I wish to say,

I’ll say it.

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The Surface Gateway Controller, GameTap, made an announcement on February 4, 2008, that our access to the cavern via their gateway would be closed on April 4, 2008.

60 days.

Less than that today, but until now I didn’t have anything to say. I went through the range of emotions fairly quickly, then we heard that “maybe” there would be another way to meet.  Naturally, I perked my ears and forgot my self-pity for a moment.  Still, I have to starting to pack my things, again, and figure out how to get all this equipment to the surface without a severe backache.

The worse thing will be to say goodbye to my characters. I have several, no secret, and most are for CCN or the Roof Volunteer Group. They can’t all come with me, which means I’ll have to say goodbye to them and let them decide what they want to do next. Will they fade into history when the gate is closed or close up their relto doors and take the leap off the ledge into the next unknown d’niverse?

And what about the quest for the Cavern Scents? Well, I’ll do what I can before it’s time to go. I had some research done before D’mala closed. The new ages are a priority as I don’t know whether I’ll ever find books to travel to those again.

And this site — it was going well until the news. Guess I should be glad I didn’t tear it down right away. The fact that it is still here means there’s more to do with it. My involvement with the Guild of Healers hasn’t stopped either. Maybe there is more to do there as well.

Oh yes, there’s a seventh sense. It’s the one known as CavernSense. It is a sense of things beyond the sixth sense, which is, in my humble opinion, rather restricted to the surface. One you get into the Cavern, something else kicks in — the seventh sense.

CavernSense

It’s the feeling you get as you look at the 10,000 year old ruins of a highly evolved race that has left nothing behind but the ruins in front of you. It’s an awareness of something around you that evokes an emotional response, but you don’t know how to describe that emotion. It’s a knowing that you are now a part of something larger than yourself, a part of another history you didn’t even know existed, connected to a race of people who came to this earth from somewhere not on this earth.

If you can wrap your mind around that, you’re getting in touch with your CavernSense.