CavernSense

Well, I do believe the upgrading, updating, re-baiting, and rearranging is almost done. I moved the CavernScents story to its new home, and when it it properly skinned and dressed I’ll ask if it can be added it to UruBlogs. Even after the Cavern has closed I find myself investigating… oh, there I go again. That’s a story of a different character and I have to stop criss-crossing the criss-crossable boundaries. “Obey, Ghaelen. Walk over there and talk about that.”

I am just grateful to the blog divinities that I didn’t break this blog as I stumbled around trying to move the installation from Fantastico to Simple Scripts. It worked. Huzzah! I do like the export function in WordPress. That helps a lot.

The Cavern closed on April 9 as several groups of people around the cavern celebrated or mourned or comforted each other or gazed out onto the lake or into the myst in quiet solitude. Near the end we suddenly received a message that the cavern would be closing. That was quite a shock. It was at that moment when we all realized we wouldn’t see each other again, nor explore, nor laugh or dance together. Tears issued in abundance for a while.

Suddenly I couldn’t communicate with anyone. They were there, but they weren’t “there” any longer. I thought of the death of a loved one, whose body remained while the soul/spirit left it. Everyone just stood there, motionless, as the Beam from the Great Zero continued to pass through the Pub. It seemed emptied of life.

I finally left. The next day I tried to return (just had to, I guess). The gateway was closed. I tried a different route, one I hadn’t used in a few months. That one worked, but things were different. There was no communicate with others through my KI, nor could I tell if anyone else was in the cavern. Links to new areas were gone, too. I realized I was back to being there alone, or once again out of time/space phase with anyone else who might be there. With a sense of sadness I recognized the cavern I knew before I knew others might also be there.

I wonder if this is part of what the bahro can do — change KI frequencies or even the magnetic frequencies of the ages so we can’t see each other. Maybe the books were still there but now I can’t see them. But then, why would they do that? It doesn’t make sense to me right now.

Anyway, it’s a lonely place again. That much I do know.

Oh my gosh, the closing of the Cavern is coming…..

There are some beautiful tributes to our community. They all make me cry. I’ll update this post as each one comes out.

“Don’t Give up, Uru.” Project Video by Marten, Tweek, and Erik: A Music Video to “Don’t Give up”

“Remember MOUL,” by Leighana: Music Video

A Memorial Video by Libera: “Remembering”

The Cavern Choir has had their final concert. There are links to a beautiful video by Veralun in several formats on the MOUL forum from the Under the Roots Party.

I’ll add more as I become aware of them.

…………………….

~Must get more tissues. I do believe I will cleanse my entire body of toxins during my shedding of tears for MOUL.

Last Thursday, April 3, GreyDragon posted that Cyan wanted to keep us all together on a common server and give us tools with which to care for the Cavern. They are just waiting for Game Tap to decide whether they will release the rights.

What a wonderful surprise. My spirits lifted over the course of a few hours, and my whole life/goals seemed clearer again. Isn’t that something?  I’ve seen that some people don’t believe it will happen, and others wait with baited breath.  Some will never know because they left long ago.  Such is life I guess.  But I’m happy.

So here is the post I should have posted a couple days ago when I ended up doing the WordPress upgrade. I’m still laughing about that. Check29cents

I finally said to myself.  Get up, get up.  Live again.

Have to accept that MOUL is ending.  Maybe in… 10 days now?… something else will begin that is related to the Cavern IN the cavern.  Maybe there will be some semblance of a cavern.

………

But not today.

I’ve been checking out other virtual worlds.  Have actually spent quite a lot of time in one called Kaneva.  It is connected with Turner in a media — hollywood — ‘be a teen rock star or movie star’ sort of way and is REALLY targeting groupies and wannabees like crazy.  Half the people that post on the forum or in the age write abbreviated words and I rarely see a complete sentence.  Argh!

The upside is… they have nice, private areas we can build in and easy-to-use building tools. A huge green field I can build on.  Nice.  We can upload music and videos and play music in our own homes or community hangout’s they have pretty good vegitation, and I’m not too bad with textures for my structures.  I’m developing a pretty neat Guild of Healer’s Groves for our group to congregate, should we get a large enough group.  I also really like the way the web page, blog, messaging, and design tools integrate with the three-D environment.  As good as There, but the graphics are tons better.

It is free and we can earn points to buy materials to build.  They have pretty nice furniture, too.  But…. the clothes are all about hip, sexy (but keep it family friendly — ummmmm), and cool dude and dudette.  I don’t get to look anywhere near my age.

Well, it’s not Uru, and there’s not much CavernSense there yet.  But there are some Uru-ites there now, so I feel less isolated than I did last week.  We’ll see how it goes when I have the first gathering.

Wandering around, have things to do but can’t seem to do them.

Looking for something, don’t know what.

Is this grief? I’m not very familiar with that feeling, so I don’t know. All I know is I wander around, into the cavern, back to the surface, around here, there, looking…

I really need to do some things. I really need to figure out what to do next.

My friend Lord Chaos can’t get into the cavern anymore; his computer crashed and isn’t booting up. At the last, he’s not here? Not at all, nowhere? I can’t compute in my own mind — haven’t got enough RAM. I just sit and wonder — what to do now?

I really need to do some things.  I have a lot to do.

Breathe.  Create a space around the content of my mind.  Make room for who I am and accept this is what I need to be doing right now.

Right now.

Maybe it’s time I post to that thread.

………………….

Can’t believe a game could have such an impact on my psyche — won’t believe it. That’s probably why it does.

The Surface Gateway Controller, GameTap, made an announcement on February 4, 2008, that our access to the cavern via their gateway would be closed on April 4, 2008.

60 days.

Less than that today, but until now I didn’t have anything to say. I went through the range of emotions fairly quickly, then we heard that “maybe” there would be another way to meet.  Naturally, I perked my ears and forgot my self-pity for a moment.  Still, I have to starting to pack my things, again, and figure out how to get all this equipment to the surface without a severe backache.

The worse thing will be to say goodbye to my characters. I have several, no secret, and most are for CCN or the Roof Volunteer Group. They can’t all come with me, which means I’ll have to say goodbye to them and let them decide what they want to do next. Will they fade into history when the gate is closed or close up their relto doors and take the leap off the ledge into the next unknown d’niverse?

And what about the quest for the Cavern Scents? Well, I’ll do what I can before it’s time to go. I had some research done before D’mala closed. The new ages are a priority as I don’t know whether I’ll ever find books to travel to those again.

And this site — it was going well until the news. Guess I should be glad I didn’t tear it down right away. The fact that it is still here means there’s more to do with it. My involvement with the Guild of Healers hasn’t stopped either. Maybe there is more to do there as well.

Oh yes, there’s a seventh sense. It’s the one known as CavernSense. It is a sense of things beyond the sixth sense, which is, in my humble opinion, rather restricted to the surface. One you get into the Cavern, something else kicks in — the seventh sense.

CavernSense

It’s the feeling you get as you look at the 10,000 year old ruins of a highly evolved race that has left nothing behind but the ruins in front of you. It’s an awareness of something around you that evokes an emotional response, but you don’t know how to describe that emotion. It’s a knowing that you are now a part of something larger than yourself, a part of another history you didn’t even know existed, connected to a race of people who came to this earth from somewhere not on this earth.

If you can wrap your mind around that, you’re getting in touch with your CavernSense.