CavernSense

Sometimes it seems that the world is just losing its collective mind.  People are arguing, in their respective boxes, about things that don’t matter to their future, their livelihood, their progress on any sort of project.  They just argue, and immediately, without even hearing the rest of the sentence from their “opponent.”  It is almost as if the winning of the argument, regardless of the actual prize, is the most important thing in their lives.

What I want to know is, what is that prize?  What could be so very important that the onslaught must begin before the sentence is complete?  Does everything you say have to be an assault?  Does everything you hear have to be an assault?

I’d love to enter into conversations about a whole slew of interesting topics.  Moula, Open Source, the state of the planet, quantum living, the massive increases in tornadoes, hurricanes, volcanoes, etc; you know, ordinary things.  But there are very few places or groups of people who can seem to stay calm long enough to have such a conversation.  I’ll keep looking, but it does get a bit frustrating to have a question and refrain from asking because only the self-declared know-all’s will be the only ones who answer — then shortly they begin to argue with each other.  Those interest me not in the least, as they’ve said very little already that I didn’t already know and plenty I knew they would say that showed knowing wasn’t their goal.  The goal is winning.

Ah well.  Such is life.  Back to the cavern to smell the flowers and talk to the butterflies.  They all seem to be able to live in harmony with one another at the moment.  I guess they’ll let me in for a while, too.

I have no idea what that means.

It sounded good in my head, though, like something that goes on automatic once I start the journey down into the Cavern.

• Relto Book — check
• KI phone/pad/pod/camera — check
• Office key (heh!) — check
• Journal — check
• Munchies — check
• Sample Collection kit — check
• Cavernsense — do I have to check?

It really seems like something that would travel with any Explorer at any time.  Rock climbing, skydiving, not-meeting, linking, ledge leaping, party organizing… oh, I forgot it that time.  Well, I suppose one out of many isn’t too bad, although the few times I forget to use cavernsense I get myself into all kinds of situations.  Like this last time, when I chose not to ignore that nudge in the back of my brain that said “The Healers Guild should do something for the Re-re-opening of the Cavern.”  I really should have sent it back to oblivion.

But then cavernsense doesn’t really allow one to leave it behind.  It is, really, always there, riding shotgun so that when it is needed it leans forward and lets out a crack! just at the time one needs it.  You can ignore it, but you can’t really ever forget it.  Once you know it is there, you always know it is there.  If you ignore it for too long, things spin you around to face it squarely and listen to that “you should have listened to me” voice that is so very irritating.  So I just accept that my cavernsense, like my other senses, will be working and alert when I get down to my Relto and start digging around for clues to things I don’t yet know exist.  I don’t worry that I’ll get into too much trouble, as long as I don’t ignore it.

And that is good Cavernsense.

Yeah, well, ok…  I’ve been busy.  But this is busy in the CavernSense sort of way.  Get down to the Cavern and do something….  smell the roses, or maybe find some roses and then smell them.

The Healers have grown a bit, in a very quiet way.  I myself have given quite a lot of thought to something I could start doing regularly in the Cavern as one of the GoH members — something that wouldn’t become large and unmanageable.  Not the meditations, because that implies something… different…  not sure what.  But I do think there is room for an event, a small one, that allows people to meet regularly, think positively, and help the community while helping themselves.  There are a lot of technical types of things going on, and I’m not a techie type anyway.  So I don’t really think I’d be stepping on any toes or butting in to events already taking place.

Yeah, I think I’m ready to take a small step over to another new mountain.  A smaller one this time.  That last one was enormous and took way too much of me to get over the top.

How about this one, over to the left?  The slope is gentle, and the pass isn’t too far below where I’ve come to already.  That means I won’t have to climb back up so much to get over the next top.  Not so far down, not so far back up.

Now that sounds like good CavernSense.

May your lamp ever remain lit

May your pen ever flow with ink

May your journal pages never run low

And may the words you write weave laughter and healing into the world you create.

I finally made a journey back to the Cavern.  Life on the surface is so very busy, and every time I think it lets up I’m wrong.  Went to Eder Gira and watched the waterfalls, the fish, the changing of day into night.  Of course I had work to do while I was there, but it felt like a re-connection with that which is most familiar to me that isn’t part of my surface life.

It was nice.

Sidenote:  Discovered I could finally be in three places at once.  In the Cavern, in Second Life, and in my chair.  I do believe I have fully entered the multi-verse.

I woke up in the morning with good intentions for the day.  Actually, I began last night with good intentions for today.  I’m giving myself a do-over.  I don’t like do-overs, because it means it already spent the time not-doing the very thing I should be doing.  Nevertheless, I would follow the rules, whatever they are.

I meant to review the video plug-in for a website I was working on, and if I liked it thought I might compare it to another, and then to yet another that was better than the one we used for CCN.  I didn’t get there, because I very much needed to upload a png to the RL project site on an OS Second Life sim, and for the life of me I have not been able to construct, modify, layer, or save a png that was not gauzy and not at all opaque in some areas and transparent in some areas.

I finally begged help from a very good friend, who, even though recovering from an illness, took the time to walk me through the procedure.  Unfortunately, the program I was currently using was as not the same as hers and although I thought the steps would be similar, they were not.

Stop.  Do-over begins.

At this point I fired up the connect-to-the-virtual desktop at school and took the lengthy amount of time to get it all set up.  My getting-old-lappy complained, but since I’d given it a good cleaning yesterday, I told it to be quiet.  Dum dee dum….   twiddle thumbs….  make coffee…  connection established, please wait for the virtual desktop to start…..   choose your program group…. please wait for the virtual desktop to continue….  choose your program….   get another cup of coffee….  start up the old-old computer…  please wait for the program to start…  check a forum on the old-old computer…  program finally starts.

Each step takes quite a long time, mostly because my little lappy is rather slow.  Funny, it is actually the fastest of all the computers we have, but in comparison to the speed with which technology has advanced, it is now considered old.  I’ve been trying to raise the funds for a new desktop, but alas, donations are not forthcoming for the Computer-for-Ghaelen campaign.  Don’t know why…

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I began the day with good intentions. Actually, I began last night with good intentions for today, which, of course, meant that I didn’t sleep well (again) because (this time) I was thinking too much.

Morning finally arrived, and I, with too-little-sleep, attempted to work on something academically intellectual and in that task I succeeded. Then, feeling less guilty about that, I moved on to the real work at hand.  I meant to review the video plug-in for a website I was working on, and if I liked it thought I might compare it to another, and then to yet another that was better than the one we used for CCN.  I didn’t get there, because I very much needed to upload a png to the RL project site on an OS Second Life sim, and for the life of me I have not been able to construct, modify, layer, or save a png that was not gauzy and not at all opaque in some areas and transparent in some areas.

I finally begged help from a very good friend, who, even though recovering from an illness, took the time to walk me through the procedure.  Unfortunately, the program I was currently using was as not the same as hers and although I thought the steps would be similar, they were not. (At this point I should have closed my beloved tried-and-true program and taken the time to use the virtual desktop privileges I have through school and connect with the correct program online.  I’ve done that often before, but it was extremely time consuming, and very resource intensive.  Basically, it is two desktops running at the same time, I think.  My little lappy is a trooper but not that powerful anymore.  So I didn’t go that route, I tried to use what was at my disposal without wasting any more time.)

Three hours later,  no program I already had installed would work for a darn and I finally decided to follow her instructions exactly.  I could not find my installation CD to save my life.  (I had uninstalled that program when I got my tried-and-true program because that old one also took a LOT of resources).   Argh!  Already five hours had passed, during which time I’d decided it was a good idea to maybe host a Guild of Healers’ event and not only give myself something else to do but poke my neck out for lopping off of my head if lopping was to be had.

Fortunately, in this case no lopping was to be found. We really do have a great Uru Community, lol.

Back to the day.

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Oh sure, who says we should always be in balance?

I’m sitting here, at the gates of the Cavern, packed, loaded, showered, pressed, and …

I can’t get in

Am I evolved?  Balanced?  Am I breathing properly?

Heck no!  I am hammering away at the authentication and download servers just as merrily and mightily as anyone else.  I want to go home!  LOL

If I could… JUST (click) PUSH (click) that password THROUGH (click, click)  I could CALM DOWN!

Must laugh at ones self quite a lot this evening.  I’ve been taking Laughing Tonic quite liberally, but I’m still somber enough to obey the “please try again” button on the “cannot connect to site” page.

Try again!  Try again!  Try again!

Ah well, soon I will cheer “Huzzah!” and this day will enter the calendar archives as another in the  history of the D’ni and Uru Community.

I am thrilled that things have been moving along at a turtle’s pace at the new Guild of Healers’ Outreach Retreat in Second Life.  We’ve finished with the basic build so that our activities can be held in our own space.  Now it’s just a matter of fussing about and modifying bits here and there.

The Silk Road Event was wonderful, as was Radio KTDN’s Anniversary.  After those events in Eder D’uru and around other Ages in Second Life, we held our own Meet & Greet or Opening Gathering in the Retreat on June 28, 2009.  It was a lot of fun, even though I discovered that I was expected to lead a mini-meditation session.  I managed to pull that off with some help from Ktahdn and his perfect choice of meditation music.  We are now holding regular meditations, and surprisingly they seem to be doing some folks some good.  Huzzah!

Ruby came to live with us up above on the surface at Eder D’uru.  Actually, I should say we took up residence below the CCNE office after she pulled it out of the hole.  The resulting cavernous opening was perfect for a retreat space.  Ruby, LC, Jane, OMJ, Tyion even… they have all arrived safely to join Alty, DudeMom, Tai’lahr, Dagda, Marten, and others who we’ve known around the community had been in Sl for some time.  (We’ll not mention Madge just yet…) I had been there myself for over a year, although I hadn’t actually been there.  I was busy building the monastery prototype in Kaneva for a RL project and learning about texturing, building blocks, and integrating 2D with a 3D environment.  It really did prepare me to quickly build the Retreat once we decided to move in. And, the RL project moves on.  Huzzah!

It looks like the Rooftop gang might make their way back to a Rooftop, too.  Convector Felium has appeared again to create havoc that Lord Chaos would heartily approve of.   Between he and Ruby the stories will begin to flow thick and heavy, I expect.  I will have to work very hard to maintain some sense of serenity in the Retreat.  Jane isn’t much help, although she does try very hard to be serious around me.  I don’t know why she laughs so much — can’t be anything I might have said…

Tai’lahr has informed me that she has spotted Serious Nonsense building up in areas around the Retreat, especially once Convector Felium mentioned he would like to help with the meditation session on Laughter.  I don’t know why a meditation session would be of such interest, but I will move ahead with it nonetheless and let him join us if he is of a mind to — provided he is cordial to Serious Nonsense.   As for the building, I’ve tried to make sure there is prim-room available for everyone who wishes to build.  I am a great defender of Serious Nonsense as well as an advocate of Healing,  so I object not at all to sharing my tools and conversation with others during the many activities I enjoy.  I don’t really think Tai minded the results Serious Nonsense left behind.  No prims ended up in anyone else’s parcels, nor were the textures of an unpleasant color.

’twas Ktahdn who let that tree root stick out below the treehouse floor….

Which, during each encounter, did them an age of good.  Some didn’t appreciate the benefits, but they got over that.  Of course, I enjoyed the encounters since I myself am very serious all the time.

I agree with the philosophy of Nonsense.  It should be as Serious as possible, as often as it can.  It, like laughter, should be so overwhelmingly effervescent that it bubbles up from wherever it originates and spills out over the top to be abundantly shared by everyone whether they want it or not.

Seriously.  Why should Nonsense be boxed in, shoved down the tunnel into the lowest, darkest caves of the cavern, and waved away with a dismissive gesture when what shows up on the surface is, in fact less real and much more nonsensical than Nonsense itself?**  I mean really… who gets to decide what is real and valued and observationally worthy and what other things are utter nonsense?  When I finally meet that person I’m going to immediately disagree just to see what my punishment will be.  It will be interesting to be an infidel or a heretic or a blasphemer or a quack or a loon-a-tic.

**(Btw, if you didn’t all of that read the sentence again.  Slowly.  It will eventually make sense.  I promise the grammar and punctuation are correct.)

I have a soft spot for Nonsense.  Like the misunderstood gypsy it is forced to travel in search of a permanent home.  Interestingly, it doesn’t see that it has a home everywhere, even in the most serious-minded, logically oriented, conservatively traditional “I-must-always-be-in-the-right” individual.  I mean, really…. who in the world is always and ever always right?

When I meet that person I’m going to immediately disagree just to see what my punishment will be.  Punishing me may make that person feel better, too, and I’m sure will teach me a right good lesson.  Then I will show Nonsense exactly where it has been living, which will make Nonsense feel better, too.

Everyone will have reaped the benefits of our Explorers encounter, and I will have done a good day’s work.  The result? A win-win situation.

Now that just makes good Cavernsense.

Serious Nonsense plans to mingle amicably with other explorers during the Radio KTDN Fourth Anniversary. This should be great fun…